Last Breath

It’s heart breaking

To feel trapped in someone’s hand

It’s breath taking

How did I come to this?

To become so small

When I should be strong and stand tall

I wish I could get back

And rewrite my (hi)story

Get back on track

Each day a new rise

Each day a new lie

Wonder when it stops

Wonder whether it’s my own fault

I’ve always craved for acceptance and love

And forgot the real source

Myself.

I declare right here that I have died

The last piece of me is gone, can’t deny it

I died and I make myself queen

I now sit on my own throne, if you know what I mean

I’m sick of mind tricks and deception

Tired of being hostage of my own actions

I’m done

Because I have no strength left

I’m done

Because I was everybody’s puppet, that’s a fact

I’m done

Because hurting myself hurts too much

I’ve decided, this time, enough! 

Get it right by Lea Michele

What have I done

Wish I could run

Away from this ship going under

Just trying to help

Hurt everyone else

Now I feel the weight of the world

Is on my shoulders

What can you do

When your good isn't good enough

And all that you touch tumbles down

Cause my best intentions

Keep making a mess of things

I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take

Oh how many times will it take

For me to get it right

To get it right

Can I start again

With my faith shaken

Cause I can't go back and undo this

I just have to stay and face my mistakes

But if I get stronger and wiser

I'll get through this

What can you do

When your good isn't good enough

And all that you touch tumbles down

Cause my best intentions

Keep making a mess of things

I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take

Oh how many times will it take

For me to get it right

So I throw up my fist

Throw a punch in the air and

Accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair

Yeah I'll send out a wish

Yeah I'll send up a prayer

And finally someone will see

How much I care

What can you do

When your good isn't good enough

And all that you touch tumbles down

Oh my best intentions

Keep making a mess of things

Just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take

Oh, how many times will it take

To get it right, to get it right

First of the year....

Wish there were enough words to say

That I'll love you anyway

Today, tomorrow, forever...who knows?

Scared....for everyday this feeling grows

Wondering whether I deserve it at all

Questioning myself...why do I seem so small?

My dreams, my goals are so messed up

At some point I just got stuck

Telling you this, reckoned you would be mad

But you looked at me and smiled instead

Where have you come from? Are you real?

Having nothing to say, I stand still

For if I speak my words, sometimes, sound like poison

And if you ask me why, there is no reason

Explanation, motive, cause, signal or ground for them

So grateful for having you around

No effort shall be in vain

Wait for me

I'll grow up

Aware, awake, alive

No buts....